Monday, August 20, 2012

If you ever check on my blog! I'm sorry~

I'm sorry to say this again , I don't mean to make things get awkward but we are really not going to end up with anything . I could understand the feelings but I really can't get onto this . I can't make you feel that pain because you are my friend , a good friend indeed.

Honestly , you belongs to someone much more better than me thousand times . He could be handsome , richer , talented and many many advantages more than I have . We are good friends even for now or even in future. I'm sorry because I really can't go on with this situation because I don't wish for options. The time I decided was 605 days ago. She is someone that I've been wishing for my future life. If only she willing to do so .

No matter how , we are still good friends. Sometimes friendship hold longer than we could expected.

Monday, August 6, 2012

Life?

Sun rises and the background of mine is so silent . Normal temperature and many of my neighbours are away from their home . This morning is so free till I could drop some of my words here. I've been working for company for over 10 months . Life is so busy and depressed everyday . Sometimes its fun but sometimes its not.

20 years old but I've been wasted much of my time on useless events and stuffs . I should know much about myself than other people . The day mum left me in this chaotic world , I know the smile of mine wouldn't be like last time anymore . Well life is about to go on , we cannot rely too much from parents , we must be able to fight for our future , for me , the worse situation is when someone ahead me , so must work on that so that no one could do that to me anymore .

Dad never care of my life , I don't know whether its a good thing or not but when I see other people does not appreciate the concern from their parents , I think I should appreciate my life now. Well , actually our life can be simple , just see whether we want to choose to be on it or not. Sometimes I admit I'm a little bit greedy because I want achieve something that I never be granted before.

Every family has their own problem , we might not understand their situation , but sometimes it could be worse than our expectation , well , sometimes I really my friends could life much better because whenever we be with them , of course we hope they are always smiling. That's why sometimes I crack jokes to make them laugh , hopefully they could catch my honesty because whenever you see your friend smile , it just like you just did a good deed. This post is very unnatural and random but I just trying to speak out what am I gonna say.